Preoccupied

Sorry. When I have a lot going on or too much stress I just...I don't know how to describe it. I pull away. I tend to sleep a lot. Eat a lot. Do things that aren't important to keep my mind on "safe" things. I preoccupy myself with trivial things that don't matter so I can't focus on the "scary" uncertain things.  Yes, I am mentally screwed up, but I come by that honestly. ; )

I have been worried about my grandma. She had her surgery (triple bypass and a valve replacement) and is doing well. She is 85 years old. They really didn't know if she would make it. Right now I think it's safe to say she will be around a while longer. That's a good thing. I wasn't ready to say good-bye.

My dear friend Rees is moving. We had a going away lunch for her today. We all laughed and cried as we shared our favorite memories. Everyone is going to miss Rees and her beautiful family. We love them all and we are all better people for having known them. There have been a lot of tears around the house. To know Rees is to love her. I can't imagine her not being around. She is a light in my life.

We've been working really hard to get the doors painted. It was a ton of work and it took several days and a lot of time. It wasn't fun and I just wanted them to go away. They are being put in tomorrow. The house is a disaster, I'm freaked out that the installers will see it messy but I still can't find the motivation to clean it. After the doors are installed we will have to paint and finish all the trim and casings. It's frustrating that this whole process has taken so long. We didn't want to be doing the installation when it is so cold but things involving construction never go as planned. I will be so glad to have this behind us.

The car was in the shop Monday with a mystery rattle that can't be found. I took one guy for a drive last week when they were putting on the snow tires. He heard it and scheduled me so he could work on it. I took it in early. It was really hard to get ready, get it there and get the kids to school on time. Guess what? He had gone on vacation. No one that was there Monday wanted to ride with me so I could point out the sound. Of course they couldn't duplicate it. Dumb asses. We have a lot of warranty left so for now we are going to let it go. According to the dealer "it's be documented" so if something happens we are good. As you can imagine I have a lot of confidence in them. Not.

There has been scouts, minor injuries that Andrew thinks are major, young women activities, laundry, grocery shopping, making dinners, packing lunches, skating parties, etc. etc. You get the idea.

Life gets in the way of the best intentions but t doesn't make me any less thankful. Each day I think about everything I have been blessed with, I just haven't been posting it.

These are all things I have been thankful for lately.

Another breathtaking sunset. Seriously they are like watching a painting come to life each night.
Grandma making it through surgery
Prayer
Faith
Friends
Family
Employment
Food
Health and strength
Protection
Kneaders Bakery (baked goods and stress go really well together)

Picture re-takes (Andrews pictures turned out much better the second time around! I will post them soon)